Currently Watching Fight Club (Single Disc Edition) By Edward Norton, Brad Pitt see related

ok so im in a huge fight with kate and it sucks...but i think i have all the reason to be extremely mad at her heres what happened...

so me kate and carm are all chillaxin in my room talking about stuff having a grand old time and kate decided it would be so cool if she takes goes in my closet in my hidden space where i keep things i dont want to look at ( a box full of memories of an ex) in which i havent looked at in months and really didnt want to look at and so she takes it out and starts reading letters out loud and throwing them at me im like wtf so i started crying cause all these memories came back and i got really upset so carm was holding me and telling me everything would be ok and she reminded me of matt and how im much better off the way things are which is true i guess but still while shes doing that kate is laughing and still reading and at this time it was a song that he had written for me then she takes out her lighter and burns like 5 pictures which i dont have the negatives for so im really upset with her and i dont plan on talking to her for a long time....

it just sucks cause of all these memories coming back which i had completely forgotten now there like right in the front of my brain like hard core and im going crazy its like i miss the times we had and all but i know things will never happen again and i dont want anything to ever come again i just miss the friendship that i had with him but its kinda hard to have a friendship with someone you havent had a conversation longer then 5 mins since august grrr WTF!!!!! watever so i went for a run with carm after kicking kate out of my house and she told me to get all of my emotions out on here which has helped alot! so i owe her my life i love carm!

a tragedy has never felt so good

Currently Playing Your Favorite Weapon By Brand New see related

update time yay

spring break was awesome for the most part i spent most of it with steve carm kate (of course) and kris me and steve then broke up on the second to last day of it but whatever i dont wanna get into that big let down tho...but yeah

this weekend was amazingly insane

*Friday* lets see i came home from school and got a call from my most favortie kate ever! and she informed me of mel having a party that night so she picked me up we picked up some goods then went to carms hizzle to get ready and we were off the the party...the party was awesome it was one crazy drunken night no details needed however

*Saturday* i spent the day doing pretty much nothing i went out with my mom for a bit then carm called and we decided we were gonna have a movie night yay for that of course...so me carm and kate went to blockbuster and rented manturian candidate and dodge ball...we ended up watching mantruian candidate and like the first 15 mins of dodge ball and then we slept

*Sunday* woke up at carms showered and went out to breakfast with carm kate bob luke gia and mikey then i came home and got the details from bec on what was poppin for sunday night so at like 530 i went to becs house and we chillaxed and waited for gin and anthony to pick us up but they were late lol and their reason for being late was they were making chicken lol anyway so gin came and picked us up and we went to anthonys hizzle and watched them eat their chicken and watched dazed and confused then we went to hamitlon st ( me bec and gin) anthony was too tired to go (sorry bec!) and we watched my last let down they sucked as presumed so then we left and gin drove me home

"dating is overrated all you need is a good hook up and you;ll be fine"Becca

greatest words ever spoken ....everybody should take that adivce and never forget it cause its so fuckin true

oh and on a happy note i start driving tomorrow!!!!! ahh watch out

Currently Playing Say It Like You Mean It By Starting Line decisions, decisions see related

here we go again...

what does one do when the one that one loves has completely moved on? your not even a memory anymore...you are so gone completely erased forever? well i guess that is up for him to decide

what does one do when one would do anything to be with that certain one again? one has no one and he has her

her...shes beautiful in every way your not shes everything he ever wanted and everything you will NEVER be...shes smart and *perfect* well in his eyes at least and yours?

and then it hits you....you were his everything at one time how could you be nothing to him now not even a friend.....and so you want to be her and you think about it all the time and you find little ways to find out their little secrets that you used to have with him and now its her on the phone with him and its her holding his perfect hand that at one time was the perfect fit of your own....

and once again it hits you and you know that it will never happen again no matter how much you pray to God.....

and the saying goes "and you know some things are just meant to happen"

or in your case NOT happen

Currently Playing Writer's Reference By Halifax see related

wow so best weekend i've had in a long time

so friday was our last game because we lost 3-2 such a great game tho i love my boys <3 me and bec had a fun time....we talked to timmy the whole bus ride home timmy is the shit lol anyway then since it was an early game i went to Kates hizzle and got wasted as usual lol and ended up passing out there..i missed Becca M's sweet sixteen but watever i heard from steve that it was "rap galore" lol so yeah

Saturday i woke up showered at kates went to carms house hung out with gia and mikey then went and visted my aunt in the hospital cause i found out she was in a realllly bad accident so i chilled with heather at the hosptial for a few hours then came home got ready and went to the for felix made in china show it was amazing as presumed <3 i love for felix got picked up from the show around 10 cause it sucked after for felix then carm and kate came over and we watched movies until 4am then i  went to sleep with them yes the three of us in one bed wat can i say lol anyway that was it for saturday

today i just woke up and showered now im off to carms for the day

::::No place to turn talk to my friends but all they tell me is to give up man hes gone but they dont know what i know the lines of your face the way your smile glows:::::

what do you do when the one person that you loved the most completely walks out of your life and leaves you without a care in the world. what does one do when one has no one? life sucks its a simple but true fact...nobody is truely ever happy because when you think that your happy and nothing would ever get  fucked up things get fucked up so bad you want to die.trying to cope with losing a loved one is the hardest thing anybody will ever do....however you learn that life does go on and all that "i can never live without you in my life" "i would die without you" BULL SHIT is proven wrong

love is all but a game being played one person wins and the other loses...what does one do when one is the loser?

and then it hits you like its never hit you before this power that comes over you they call it "lonliness" the strongest feeling in the world hits you like its never hit you before because you lost you are the loser...so you cry and read his letters written to you knowing that its not going to do anything but make you worse but you wish things were like they used to be and you know things will never be the same but you continue to cry yourself to sleep over him looking at your phone knowing it will never say his name again and then you cry......and it hits you......

because he HATES you

and so you practice what you would say to him if only he would talk to you and you write him a letter everyday telling him about your life not as if he would care about it anyway and you store these letters in a little box under your bed for nobody to see and you repeat words of love spoken to late and you think to yourself maybe if i said that or maybe if i did that or maybe if i wasnt this way or maybe if i was more like her.....then maybe things would be different maybe I would be his girl once again and then it hits you and you know you will NEVER be his girl again....

and that whole"soul mate destined for eachother beloved" thing is way overrated anyway

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